"What I want to say is this: - If you logically try to persuade a person that there is no absolute reason for shedding tears, the person in question will cease weeping. That's self evident. Why, I should like to know, should such a person continue doing so?"
"If such were the usual course of things, life would be a very easy matter," replied Raskolnikoff.
- Crime and Punishment, Dostoevsky
One of the best sleeps I have had in many, many nights. Was rewarded with a panic attack en route to work whereby I delved into such topics as:
- Why am I (after 8 years) with someone who doesn't view a future together as positively as I do?
- I am my father's daughter. What am I doing in an small office, in a tall building, downtown Vancouver, pushing paper around?
And then I thought, "Because I'm terrified of everything". Change is scary. Take risks? Are you shitting me? That's for people in movies.
Yeah. I drink, run and bury myself in books. It's Psych 101, isn't it?
I just want to grab myself and shake me.
But then what?
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