I'm a fucking mess.
Someone adopted my dad's cats. I want my dad's cats, but I have an apartment.
I don't know what I'm doing.
I don't know what I'm supposed to be doing. Or saying. Or how I'm supposed to act.
I have a wedding to go to tomorrow (well, I guess it's today now) and I'm going to look like a bag of shit.
What's real?
What's important?
I should likely talk to someone, but who do I talk to? Who wants to see me sit there and cry for hours? Cause, you know, that would be fun.
Fundamentally, I'm having a hard time getting my shit together.
I guess I want someone to help me through this, but who can do that? Is someone going to come and babysit me every goddamn day? Hold my hand when I start to get weepy and nostalgic?
Right. So then.
Really. No fucking idea.
"What I want to say is this: - If you logically try to persuade a person that there is no absolute reason for shedding tears, the person in question will cease weeping. That's self evident. Why, I should like to know, should such a person continue doing so?"
"If such were the usual course of things, life would be a very easy matter," replied Raskolnikoff.
- Crime and Punishment, Dostoevsky
"If such were the usual course of things, life would be a very easy matter," replied Raskolnikoff.
- Crime and Punishment, Dostoevsky
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The commute will be horrendous but I would love to be there for you. I've been where you are and I will surely be there again some day. I know what you need but the distance is a bitch. I won't give you any of that "I'm with you in spirit - giving you a mental hug" crap. In times like this, physical presence and actual hugs are essential.
Know that I would if I could.
Brian
Thanks, man.
My dear, you can call me anytime.
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